heyyaaaa

heya guys.. just a short one before i head off to lala landd... =P

how was your CNY?
(gamble, drinks, fireworks, fun, anyone?)

mine's okay i guess.. but it went buy too quickly to even notice! going back to school was sooo sucky.. i dint even have time to sleep till my eye lids refuse to stay closed..! darn.. and +! how could anyone think of school during the holidays? BUT. here's the ironic part.. we have EXAMS coming up.. man.. right after i thought i was relaxing, here come the paiN!

lack of sleep + laziness = sleeping in class.

geee.. how can anyone stay awake? sigh. i'm soo tired right now, and yet i felt bad for not bloggin for quite some time.. i thought of posting up a jiwang post, but heck. not in the mood for all those lovey dovey stuff.. i just dont see the point! you fall in love, you enjoy the music, and you get hurt. is it worth it? pffftt.. heck no. maybe one day when i'm sure i'm ready for all those hurt and stuff, i'll get back into dating.. but for now~ lets kick some boredom butt and catch some zzzz's! nitez!

post-valentine..

hmm.. how was YOUR valentine?

i would also like to take this oppurtiny to wish all those chinese peeps a very happy chinese new year! may the new year bring you peace and prosperity/..(cheh..)

take care guys! M.I.A.

i can soooo relate to this song..

Well he looks at me with those innocent eyes
and says it looks like you're wearin' some kinda disguise
because your hair sticks up, youre shoes are untied
I hope that you got that shirt at half price
And every word I say falls flat on the floor
I try to tell a joke, he's heard it before
and I dont think that I can take it no more
He's drivin' me right, out my front door

CHORUS
Why do ya do what you do to me baby?
Shakin my confidence driving me crazy
You know if I could I'd do anything for you
Please don't ignore me 'cause You know I adore you

(softly)
Can't you just pretend to be nice?
Could you at least pretend to be nice
If you could just pretend to be nice
Everything in my life would be alright

And I try so hard just to figure him out
But if you tell me what he's been thinkin about
And then he falls asleep on the living room couch
With his sunglasses on, his tounge hangin' out
Then he dissappears for a week at a time
And then he shows up, just like evrything's fine
I don't get what goes on in his mind
But I'm tired of hearing the same stupid lines

CHORUS

Why do ya do what you do to me baby?
Shakin' my confidence driving me crazy
You know if I could I'd do anything for you
Please don't ignore me 'cause You know I adore you

(softly)
Can't you just pretend to be nice?
Could you at least pretend to be nice
If you could just pretend to be nice
Everything in my life would be alright

happy vee day

heya guys.. its been a while since i last blogged.. since my sis is around, and there aint much privacy anymore.. zzz.. but anyways, she's out now and i can write on things that happened lately. well, i actually lost my inspiration to blog. and the internet's been really shitty these days, taking forever to load.. but today its fine.. and yeah, the inspiration thingy.. lets just say, dreams are shattered..? yeah.. as you all know, tomoro will be the lovey dovey day of the year.. and yes, that means VALENTINE's DAY. ahhhh!!!! *dramatic scene* i've got a bad feeling about valentine's this year.. but who cares.. its just one day yah? no big deal.. i'm valentine-less this year.. BUT i'm gonna paktoh with lina.. haha! she's my 5th husband worr.. keke and yes, i'm still very, VERY confused with my feelings.. its all over the place.. sometimes i think its easier to just stay heartless, ya noe? but somehow.. that good-for-nothing-non-appreciative guy always pops up in my head.. you think its a good thing? its not.. its either i get really really excited and loud. OR really really emo and quiet. thats just NOT the ruby you guys should know.. but, not to bring any valentiniers down.. so i'm wishing all my loyal readers a happy valentine's day.. appreciate ur love ones yah!

- the one and only - xoxo

heeeee

awww.. u're so cute.. =X

stay in my life yar. be the light of my life. you must.. =P

if not i'll smack your head. xD

hrm..

The Sweet Escape

[Gwen]

If I could escape I would but,

First of all, let me say

I must apologize for acting stank & treating you this way

Cause I've been acting like sour milk all on the floor

It's your fault you didn't shut the refrigerator

Maybe that's the reason I've been acting so cold?



[CHORUS]

If I could escape & recreate a place that's my own world

& I could be your favourite girl (forever), Perfectly together

Tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)

If I could be sweet, I know I've been a real bad girl (I'll try to change)

I didn't mean for you to get hurt (whatsoever)

We can make it better, Tell me boy wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)



[Akon]

I want to get away, to our sweet escape

I want to get away, yeah



[Gwen]

You held me down, I'm at my lowest boiling point

Come help me out, I need to get me out of this joint

Come on let's bounce, counting on you to turn me around

Instead of clowning around, let's look for some common ground

So baby, times get a little crazy

I've been gettin' a little lazy, waitin' on you to come save me

I can see that you're angry by the way that you treat me

Hopefully you don't leave me, wanted you with me



[CHORUS]

If I could escape & recreate a place that's my own world

& I could be your favourite girl (forever), Perfectly together

& tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)

If I could be sweet (sorry boy)

I know I've been a real bad girl (I'll try to change)

I didn't mean for you to get hurt (whatsoever)

We can make it better

& tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)



Woohoo, Yeehoo

Woohoo, Yeehoo (If I could escape)

Woohoo, yeehoo (If I could escape)

Woohoo, Yeehoo

argggghhh

i am such a DUFUS!!! =______=

imagine the dumbest person alive.. and i'm dumber than that! sigh.

i've never wanted all this..

OMG OMG!!! ONE TREE HILL 4x13 just came out!!! ahhh!!!! after days of searching and waiting.. FINALLY!!! =____+

i'm just really excited.. i dont know why. but i just am.. things just dont go the way it should at times, but hey.. thats life. deal with it.. and i am.. overlooking what i had all this while.. feels kinda stupid, dont cha think?

its weird huh.. how this world is full of lies.. misperceptions.. misunderstanding.. heartbreak. its somewhat funny. that how the little things in life can break someone's heart.. really badly.. i'd know, cause i've been there, done that.. and no matter how badly you would like to run away from that hurt, the more it hurts you. so its better if you just face the music, then move on..

is it all worth it though? the pain and all.. sometimes i wonder that myself.. what is God trying to lead me to? is this some kind of test? maybe.. all the possibilities.. but thats our job to figure it out.. we mould our on destiny. HE just sets our future. we'll get there, but the path is OUR choice.. whether u take the straight hurtful road.. the crooked road with detours.. its your choice.

decisions do matter in our everyday life.. whether one decides to blog instead of sleep.. when one decides to spend more time with some1 instead of that some1 else.. when one decides to study or not.. these are all little decisions that must be made.. and little do we noe that these decisions are made to somehow lead us to a path that we would walk through for the rest of our lives. wow. freaky huh..

life's short. live it. never underestimate it. but do believe in it.

flaws..mistakes..love..?heartbreaks..

fantasi sebuah cinta..

Di sini cinta..

Yang daku rasa..

Mewarna segala..

Kasih ku dibawa..

Yang mekar bersinar bercahaya..

Pada jiwa ku sandarkan oh kekasih..

Yang ku cinta..

Kini tiada....

Cinta daku bawa..

Hilanglah bersama..

Titis airmata..

Dan luka di jiwa bila mana cinta..

Pergi bersama dengannya..

Dia dikau puja..

Dikesali..

Tiada maknanya lagi..

Dan ilusi..

Dalam kenangan sepi..

Cinta kini..

Hanya fantasi...

Yang sentiasa mengisi..

Di ruang hati..

Kekasih ... selamanya..

Seandainya..

Ku lafazkan..

Suara hati daku tanpa ragu ...

its okay~

have you ever wondered how life would be.. if you could change just one minor detail in the past? would things change? hmm.. maybe..

i've been doing alot of thinking lately.. and apparently, my mind's all over the place.. i've been wondering how life would be if i stayed in stampin.. how my life would be if i never had good grades.. how life would be if i never mixed with the people i am with now.. how life would be if umm.. i was not me?

then again, God has led me to this path for a reason, and my lifetime mission is to figure out what this is all about.. i do believe in destiny.. and fate.. and mostly. MIRACLES. LOL. here's how the story goes..

Ruby : haiya miche.. scared lar.. next period sejarah worr..
*Lina comes in..*
Lina : Haiya.. nvm la.. you die, we die with you.. hor miche?
*giggles*
Miche : yalar.. but i believe in miracles..
Ruby : yahhh.. if i get A for sejarah, i shall believe in miracles!

*teacher comes in..* Ruby got an A for sejarah.. weeee!!!

Ruby : yahh michee.. i do believe in miracles..
Miche : see! i told you!

this thought me a little lesson.. since that day, i learnt to believe in myself, and set things in my life straight.. i do believe that if there is hard work, and a little faith.. things would go the way it should be.. *in God's will of course* same goes to every other things that happens in this world.. destiny.. miracles.. fate.. do YOU believe in them? i do.. and i do believe when two people are destined together, nothing can tear them apart.. not even time..

by God's grace, everything will be alright.. and even if you stumble or fall,. He always comes just in time to pick you up again.. have faith. and God bless you guys..

wubieee

everytime i look away, it hurts..
everytime i stare, it hurts..
everytime i walk by, it hurts..
everytime~ the list goes on and on..

I keep my distance, but you still catch my eye..

buhh! ruby! why the heck are you sooo... emotional?! =____= so anywaysss~

i had a great nap today. best one i had for the past month~ feel so energised.. but i still am sleepy~ so i guess i should go freshen up then finish my history notes.. haih..

things to do this weekend~
- school?! =/
- if no school, badminton? =))
CNY shopping with my mummeh.. =DDD
- tambourine dancing
nimai's bday?
- daphne's bday?

Ruby's Happiness' Level just boosted up by....ALOT! lol..

goes around comes around

hmm... =S

errr... =X

i.... =(

you... >.<

we.... =(((

blehhh.. =z

whoah!

i hate/despise/dislike friendster..

-____________-

enuf of that.. i'm happy.. i'm got sunshine.. i'm..... FREE!! for another 3 weeks? then... horror!!!! once more.. =.=

so darn happy~ keke.. lalalalaaaa... i hear the rainbows singing. i hear the clouds whistling.. i hear... my phone ringing...?? haha.. i need sleep! lots and lots of sleep!! i need to study... WAIT..!! for wad?! i'm freeeee!!!

swt.. ruby's lost it. help her. please.. >.<

dedicated to you.. (i hope you noe who u are..)

i just cant bare to hurt you anymore.. but i just cant lie to myself.. i hope you understand..

you ask, why'd i turn away when i see you.. why didnt i at least said something to you.. well, the truth is.. i cant.. i just couldnt. somehow, the sight of you made fright present in me.. ask me why, and i wont have a clue.. i guess it was because you are the living proof of mistakes i did in the past that led to much hurt and misery, and somehow, its scary..

you and i both know, i dont like my past.. i'm not happy with it.. and trust me, you were the only one who made me feel aite when everything wasnt.. remember how great things were before we fell in love.. i want that back.. not this distance-- the one thats keeping us apart.. i wont say it was a mistake falling in love with you, but i must say that i miss the old days..

remember those bullying.. KFC day.. teacher's day.. AG outing.. everything. what happened to it? it was all gone.. and its all hurt and fright right now.. see how better things were went we were friends.. special friends i might add.. God sent you to me for a reason.. and it was to brighten my life up.. and you did exactly dat.. but, seeing you hurt aint making it brighter!

so shine on.. for me?..

all i am

i... just feel like nothing can be said anymore.. i feel like my feelings are pointless and it's been trampled on day by day.. do i mean nothing at all to you? i never thought my feelings would reach to a stage. where i could actually get hurt.. without even doing anything about it.. what the heck is this?!

can i not even have a place in your heart?..

everytime i see you leave, it hurts.. whY?! i have no clue.. i guess, there's nothing i can do or say to make things better.. to at least make me feel better.. i never wanted my feelings to be this way.. i've never intended to hurt myself once more.. but.... it seems that hurt and sorrow can always find its way back to me, no matter what i do..

do you even know what you mean to me?..


this could never mean anything to you.. i couldnt mean anything to you.. i..... hmm.. nevermind.

inspired.

"My cuts aren't healing, learning how to love.." ..I Caught Fire ~ The Used-

there comes a day.. where i just wanna tell you.. everything. but, something stopped me.. i just couldn't make it out.. i couldnt find it in me, what was pulling me back.. maybe, just maybe.. its.. her. she's just everything i'm not, and it makes me feel even WORSE.

"Something I've been keeping locked away behind my lips, I can feel it breaking free with each and every kiss.." .. Breathing - Yellowcard

then, there's a time, where i just lost hope.. everything was up and down.. the weight of the world was weighing me down.. i just couldnt take it.. but, the sight of you.. made everything alright again~ every single day, i would wait until the time when i can see you.. i can feel your presense near me.. i swear i feel as if i had wings, and i could fly.. it just makes my day. but i dont know why, it feels great.

"You don't know how much you mean to me, whenever you're down you know that you can lean on me.." .. Hold you down - J.Lo

i've never dreamt of feeling this way.. it just happened.. and it just had to be YOU. ask me why i feel this way, and i wont have a clue how or why.. ask me to stop? i will try.. but believe me, it failed countless times before.. and now? i dare not do anything about it, because somehow. its hurts so bad.. whenever he comes online~ whenever he's around~ whenever he talks to me~ whenever he just waves his hands to me.. it hurts. knowing that.. he could never be mine..

"I want you more, than i ever did before.. still I can't let you know.." .. Untitled - Kimberly Carey Chan

tell me i'm wrong.. help me understand. cause right now, i think i'm losing my mind.. i've made so many wrong turns in my life, which eventually led to heartbreak and misery.. and i've got a pretty good idea what this is too.. i am just trying my very best to let go of him.. its just, hard. that warm smile.. that dark figure. that innocent look. those mesmerizing eyes. its just all makes everything harder still.. maybe by next year.. wait. NEXT YEAR?! thats a LONG time.. snap back into reality, Ruby!

"Just so you know, this feeling's taking control of me.. and i can't help it.." .. Just So You Know - Jesse McCartney

I'm waiting..

YLPT - 4 days after. xD

hmm.. visited zoe's blog.. and i discovered that i havent posted anything about YLPT!! ahh!! how could i forget?

okay.. Day 1. of YLPT(Young Leaders' Preliminary Training) CAMP 2007 @ Mdm. Sally Yap's Residence 27th January

-there was SCHOOL in the morning.. and it was raining by the time the bell rang at 11.50 am.. so my dad only arrived at 12.30 pm and we went for lunch..
-i reached home and tidy up my packing.. just to find out that i lost my map.. yupp lecture time from Mr. Chan.. blabla
-by God's grace, i found the place.. xD
-we had loads of fun on the first day and we found out that we had to exchange with 3rd Kch the praise and worship songs, considering that they were not prepared..
-AND we found out that we had a WRITTEN test the next day..=.= study, study, study!! 40+ pages of Girls' Brigade knowledge! the horror!
-every1 was sooo kin teo.. every minute was treasured!
-lights off at 11. if NOT, advisor will come in with her lioness hair and stare at YOU.. xD
-i could not sleep. thinking of the nextday.. and the exam.. and the croaking of frogs.. but eventually, i fell asleep.. credits to Mr. Jason John. thanks!
-i slept on a comfy air bag.. but made loads of noise everytime i twist and turn.. so my roomies got annoyed at one point.. but cant blame me! i was sick(flu and sorethroat) and i was sleeping directly under the aircond. and i woke up more than.. 5 times? xD

Sunday, 28th January 2007
-woke up at 6 am, to STUDY. we were suppose to wake up at 3am(whose genius idea was that anyway? xDD) zoe went around waking every1 up, but she went to sleep after that anyways..
-6.30am our activities started.. devotion, talks.. DRILL.. and i found out that i had a slight fever.
- we had drill INDOORS. how cool is that? silent drill man.. BUT. i was dismissed earlier.. cos the fever was getting to me..=S
-1430 hours. our written test started.. ppsstt.. the officers helped us cheat..=PP
-and packed our stuff.. said byebye.. and went home~ it was a great two-day camp! i got to know knew friends, met old faces.. and had great fun! with the gila2 people i knew form JLT!

i can hear wedding bells..

heya guys!! OMG. i'm soooo excited!! not because of CNY, or valentine's day.. OR PMR.. or wadsoever you guys are thinking.. BUT. i'm looking forward to the end of the year 2007!! ahhh!! my sister(kim)'s getting married on the 2nd of December 2007? (not a fixed date...i think) and ME.. i'm gonna be her...

BRIDE'S MATE!! (and my other sister of course..teehee)

and she showed me a couple of dresses that i'm suppose to choose from.. and BELIEVE me.. they are B-E-A-Utiful! i love my sis!! and i'm suppose to be flying to australia end of this year too! woooot!!! which means i wont be around for my birthday either.. *sobs* jeffie cant chia me my scoops! and no sampan ride! lol..

wanna have a look at the dressies??! xDDD

that's Lynette.

that's Davina

thinking of going red..? Alex.

AND my personal favourite, Rhapsody.

i had a look at a few others, but these are the few that i personally like.. i cant wait till i'm done with PMR.. till i can finally hang out freely again.. till i can fly to australia and see Samuel! (Enoch [kim's fiancee] 's little nephew!) and, there's more! Callia (my little niece) is gonna be the flower girl.. and Samuel.. as the little ring bearer smth lidat.. LOL..can you imagine those little kids walking down the aisle? i can.. it'll be awesome!