why dont you kiss herr..

sigh.. i'm feeling so darn low right now.. though i'm not really showing it.. it's always like that.. its either i'm hiding it, or i've forgotten about it.. i guess i can say that i'm carefree.. but, one thing's for sure.. my heart's sooooo fragile. =X

i've been thinking about him ALOT these days.. and i really dont know why.. and i've been listening to this song ALOT too.. the melody's so sad.. so.... hmm.. i dont know.. i've never really gotten to know him, and i'm thinking this much about him.. maybe Nimai's right.. but, i gues.. i'll just stick.with.u. i've never intended for me to fall like this deep him.. it just hurts at times you know.. i guess i'll never figure out what this is.. it'll remain.... that way

this song.. is dedicated to you.. i know you probably aint reading this, but i just wanted to know that there is smth inside me that is longing to come out.. just reaching out to you.. calling out only your name.. only yours.......

We're the best of friends
And we share our secrets
She knows everything that is on my mind
Ohhh...
Lately something's changed
As I lie awake in my bed
A voice here inside my head
Softly says

[Chorus]
Why don't you kiss her
Why don't you tell her
Why don't you let HIM see the feelings that you hide
He'll never know
If you never show
The way you feel inside

Oh, I'm so afraid
To make the first move
Just a touch and we could cross the line
And everytime he's near
I wanna never let him go
Confess to him what my heart knows,
hold him close

[Chorus]

What would he say
I wonder would he just turn away
or would he promise me
that he's here to stay
It hurts me to wait
I keep asking myself

[Chorus]
Why Don't you kiss her
(tell her you love her)
Why Don't You tell her
(tell her you need her)
Why don't you let her see
The Feelings that you hide
Cause she'll never know
If you never show
The way you feel inside

* the words in bold are not the original lyrics, but yeah.. u get my point.

missing euu

i thought of you today. and that made me miss you so much

though i couldnt be with you today, please keep shining on.. shoo the dark clouds away~ awww.. i sound like a mummy..

tomorrow's a new day.. suatu hari yang pasti akan mengubati kerinduanku ini.. i hope.. =S

i dropped a tear in the ocean, the day you find that tear, is the day i will stop missing you. xoxo.

RuBy..

hmm..

我可以寄没有地址的信

ji mei you di zhi de xin

Sent a letter with no one in mind

这样的情绪有种距离

zhe yang de qing xu you zhong ju li

This feeling is so distant

你放着谁的歌曲

ni fang zhe shui de ge qu

Whose song are you listening to now?

是怎样的心情

shi zhen yang de xin qing

What emotions within you are being stirred?

能不能说给我听

neng bu neng shuo gei wo ting

Can you tell me?

雨下得好安静

yu xia de hao an jing

The rain is so silent

是不是你偷偷在哭泣

shi bu shi ni tou tou zai ku qi

Is it you crying silently?

幸福真的不容易

xing fu zhen de bu rong yi

Happiness is not easy to come by

在你的背景有我爱你

zai ni de bei ying you wo ai ni

I’m loving you from your shadows

我可以陪你去看星星

wo ke yi pei ni qu kan xing xing

I can accompany you to see the stars

不用再多说明

bu yong zai shuo ming

Nothing much needs to be said

我就要和你在一起

wo jiu yao he ni zai yi qi

I just want to be with you

我不想又再一次和你分离

wo bu xiang you zai yi ci he ni fen li

I don’t want to ever leave you again

我多么想每一次的美丽

wo duo me xiang mei yi ci de mei li

The beauty I see everytime,

是因为你

shi ying wei ni

It’s all because of you

幸福它真的不容易

xing fu ta zhen de bu rong yi

Happiness, it’s really not easy

a sudden urge to blog

i havent been blogging in a while now.. hmm.. feeling guilty again! hehe

so anyways, am having a sudden urge to blog.. dont know why.. its like, everytime i hear the "i Dont Wanna Fall In Love" song, its like saying, "RUBY! BLOG!" lol.. funny eh..

so hey, the one week holidays are ending, and soon i have to back to school.. *sobs* owh wells, at least i did smth with my hols this time.. not just laze around at home, rottin in boredom. and oh, did i mention that i'm in the choir club? lol..

hmm.. i'm feeling really emo right now, no idea why, who, or what.. not realizing that this feeling has been here all this time.. sigh. i had one of those dreams again last night.. it was kinda like that Just So You Know video by Jesse McCartney.. just featuring me and him. sighs. i don't know whether to feel great about it or not.. its just so wrong.. but what Charri said last night made me feel so great.. but, was he? sigh.

i guess, God has His reasons, and i'm not worthy to even question that.. but, at times i just do wonder.. what'll happen.. i guess, its yesterday's news now.. move along~ God has better things planned out for me, i do believe in that. just gotta hold on to whatever i have now, and go through life, as it is.. i am lucky, and so are you.. you just need to realise that. take care.. of yourself and yeah, u noe who.

maybe..

Didn't you want to hear the sound
of all the places we could go
Do you fear the expressions
on the faces we don't know
It's a cold hard road
when you wake up and I don't think that I
Have the strength to let you go

Maybe it's just me,
Couldn't you believe t
hat everything I said and did,
wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye,
and your calm hard face makes me wish that
I was never brought into this place

There goes my ring
It might as well have been shattered
and I'm here to sing
about the things that mattered
about the things that made us feel alive for oh so long
about the things that kept you on my side when I was wrong

Maybe it's just me,
Couldn't you believe
that everything I said and did,
wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye,
and your calm hard face
makes me wish that I was never brought into this place

And someday, I promise I'll be gone
And someday, I might even sing this song
To you, I might even sing this song,
to you and I was crying alone tonight
and I was wasting all of my life
just thinking of you
So just come back we'll make it better
So Just come back I'll make it better
than it ever was x2

Maybe it's just me,
Couldn't you believe
that everything I said and did,
wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye,
and your calm hard face
makes me wish that I was never brought into this place
Maybe it's just me,
Couldn't you believe
that everything I said and did,
wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye,
and your calm hard face
makes me wish that I was never brought into this place
( I want it all, Don't leave right now)
(I'll give you everything)

jiwangness..NOT! lol

when i told u i love u,
please noe that its true,
cos i've never been more certain,
that each that it has always been you,
the one that i've been longing to see,
the one i've been longing to touch,
but baby, would you love me?
the way that i love you so much?

the time we spent,
would all remain a memory
for when i first held your hand,
that moment was just you and me,
it opened a door for me,
that led to a light ever so bright,
for i have been blind to not see,
that it has been you, cheering my darkest nights

i couldnt part from you,
and hope you noe its true,
so please remind your square friend,
to not seperate us two..
but when its time for me to let go,
i just really really hope you noe,
it wasnt cause i dint love you,
its just cause i wasnt allowed to..

PMR is coming,
it scares me everyday,
but when i thought of you,
my troubles fled away..
but it hurts that we would be seperated
for 2 to 3 months or so,
but do believe it wasnt my doing,
i'll never want to do so..

so when i'm gone,
be very strong and move on,
i might see you from time to time,
but you must go ur way, and i'll go mine.
tell that little friend of yours,
that it doesnt need to suffer no more,
for i will be gone,
walking out that same brown door.

be strong, my computer.. you'll always be in my heart.

(a story of a very lame girl who loves her computer. cheers! ^^)

p/s: the little fren refers to the modem. heee

uncontrolable tears, controlled. hmm..

staring at those beautiful stars
that once brought such a deep meaning
felt as if it was as though
i could feel it once more..
but it's gradually fading away..
as you showed me what my heart already knew..

i've tried so badly..
i've failed countless times..
but i got right up and tried once more
yet, once again..
i stumble and fall..
i fell so hard that i nearly broke down and cried..
but even at my worst, you were there..
i never saw such a thing..
a love that was here to stay..

"You could've had everything..
everything you could possibly want.."
but would i be satisfied with EVERYTHING?
still asking the same questions..
still searching for the right answers..
but everything just isnt falling into the right place..
it isnt..

but i've found a way to leave things behind..
found a way to walk away..
and by God grace, i'm still here today
living entirely for Him..
and doings works for him..

speaking of works, i've got homework!
AND i have to study!! arrgghh!! hee..

a meaningful one

Why do we close our eyes when we sleep?

When we cry?

When we imagine?

When we kiss?

This is because the most beautiful things in the world

are unseen.

We are all a little weird

and life's a little weird

and when we find someone whose weirdness

is compatible with ours,we join up with them

and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love.

There are things that we never want to let go of,

people we never want to leave behind,

but keep in mind that letting go isn't the end of the world,

it's the beginning of a new life.

Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt,

those who have searched and those who have tried.

For only they can appreciate the importance of the people

who have touched their lives.

A great love..

It's when you shed tears and still you care for him,

it's when he ignores you and still you long for him.

It's when he begins to love another

and yet you still smile and say I'm happy for you.

If love fails, set yourself free,

let your heart spread its wings and fly again.

Remember you may find love and lose it,

but when love dies,you never have to die with it.

The strongest people are not those who always win

but those who stand back up when they fall.

Somehow along the course of life,

you learn about yourself and realize

there should never be regrets,

only a lifelong appreciation of the choices you've made.

A true friend understands when you say, I forgot,

waits forever when you say, just a minute,

stays when you say leave me alone,

opens the door even before you knock

and says can I come in?

Loving is not how you forget but how you forgive,

not how you listen but how you understand,

not what you see but how you feel,

and not how you let go but how you hold on.

It's more dangerous to weep inwardly rather than outwardly.

Outward tears can be wiped away

while secret tears scar forever.

In love, very rarely do we win

but when love is true, even if you lose,

you still win just for having the tingle of loving someone

more than you love yourself.

There comes a time when we have to stop loving someone

not because that person has stopped loving us

but because we have found out

that they'd be happier if we let go.

It's best to wait for the one you want

than settle for one that's available.

Best to wait for the one you love than one who is around.

Best to wait for the right one

because life is too short to waste on just someone.

Sometimes the one you love

turns out to be the one who hurts you the most,

and sometimes the friend who takes you

into his arms and cries when you cry

turns out to be the love you never knew you wanted.

If you really love someone never let go,

don't believe that letting go means that you love best,

instead fight for your love,that's what true love is.

Laugh to your heart's content; you cannot go through life without it.

*props to Mr Larry Nyanti who posted this one..

i'll let the poem speak for my heart. cheers.