Friday, April 17, 2009

to whom it may concern

i'm SORRY.

i cant even begin to describe how sorry i am. or how bad i feel bout everything that's going down between us.. i wanna make things right. but i dont know howww.. it hurts so bad seeing you this way. i didnt mean any of thiss.. =(

i'm sorry..

i didnt mean to break your heart.. i didnt intend for it to end this way. i want you to be happyy. thats all i want for youu. is that too much to ask? =( just a smile on that face, it'll make my day, trust mee. please.

sorrysorrysorryy.


just give me one more chance to make it right.

.

Monday, April 13, 2009

what?

what? holidays ending? ALREADY? shits.

i dont like how my weekend went though. it was bitter sweet. hmm

FRIDAY (Good Friday)
if u were wondering, yes i DIDNT go church. Hey its not my fault kay! my parents were busy with the new house. clean clean, tanam jagung. etc etc. so i woke up at around 10.. It was soo nice to sleep in..*yawns* then we went out to spring in the afternoon for The Last Supper, eh, Lunch with Bryan Kho Poi Hou.


I highly recomend Secret Recipe's Prawn Mac and Cheese. OH SALIVATE PEOPLE

(still cant beat The Living Room's cabonara though. HEAVENLY)


Bye BK =(


Yes you can tell i love that girl heaps. <3

SATURDAY (Holy Saturday)

and so, i did NOT go to church also. zz.. So, we had a badminton competition last Saturday.. I dont wanna talk about it. I had to leave early due to my responsibilities with the Girls' Brigade.. We have our very own pioneer council now BTW. Yours truly was unfortunately elected as the Chairperson. I have to deal with the girls who dont pay attention and the girls who talk too much(NOT SAYING ITS A BAD THING). but i love 'em girls. After that i went for worship practice in church. It was uber early loh that dayy. UBER HOT ALSO.zzz.

SUNDAY (Easter)

and yes, I went to church! Praise and Worship was awesomee. THE SKIT DONE BY THE KIDS DAMN CUTE LOR. there was this really cute boy acting as jesus, THE CHAMPION. dayum, i shud've taken a video, or at LEAST a picture or two. Perhaps i could ask some from J, the fly on the wall. He looked like a freakin formal paparazi lor.. Not saying its a bad thingg. Went to SCR express for lunch, saw the youtthh. Funny thing, once someone sees someone you know har, everyone starts texting "ey, i see you.." or calling "WOII! i see you ah weii!" *Stares back at them* "yes i see you too..." =.=

I slept in the WHOLE AFTERNOON from 1-6 i think? is it babe? i dont remember. Hey, at least he said it was cute. Happy liaoo. =D

MONDAY (Easter Monday)

I dont get it, why easter monday? Why got holiday? dont get me wrong! I'M NOT COMPLAINING! i love holidayyyss! but why? HMM.. Another saturday down the drain lor..
Monday just happens to be today. So, this morning was the continuation to our little badminton tournament. i still dont wanna talk about it. we lost to a better team. Gab.is.an.ass =D i came back, i went to sleep, and here i am again

I should be sleeping till around 6. BUT I DIDNT. YOU WANNA KNOW WHY!

I'LL TELL YOU WHY

I had a dream

A BAD DREAM

i was a lesbo. =.= with rachel loi yuen ying.

omg.

no more elaborations needed. zzzzz

i love my baby. <3>


got tuition tonight. zzzzzzzzzz




Friday, April 10, 2009

1 thing 2 say 3 words 4 you


"when darkness turns to light, it ends tonight."
its weird how stuff like this happen, no? one second ure with somebody, one second u find youre with somebody else. one second you were counting on forever, and in another blink of an eye, forever seems so far away. perhaps that just goes to show that nth really lasts forever in this temporary world. so appreciate what you have when you still have it. appreciate. thats cause we never really know what we have till its gone. but why wait till its gone right? there's no time.. dont let your ego get the best of you. its not worth it.

"every long lost dream, led me to where you are. others who broke my heart, they were like northern stars.."
but then again. we're reminded that God has a plan and purpose for everything that happens. So all that we have to do is trust in Him, and be strong. sounds easy enough huh? trust. its a big word.. so hard to gain, and it hurts so bad when its taken for granted.

"where were you, when everything was falling apart?"
people arent always there for you when you need someone. however, when they are there, its a wonderful feeling huh? knowing someone is there for you. be it lover, a friend, a family member.. but, even at those times when you dont have someone. be reminded that loneliness isnt always a bad thing. it gives you space to think for your own, reflect on the past, look forward to the future..

"because of you, i'd never stray too far from the sidewalk.."
getting left behind, thats the worse feeling in the world.. when someone who means the world to you leaves, it isnt an easy thing to overcome huh.. not easy at all.. you need to pull yourself together and put on a brave face so your friends wont flood you with questions that will only make you more emo. pretend. force fake smiles, perhaps a laugh. sometimes people leave, even when you dont want them to. you beg and you beg for them to stay.. and they just cant care less. they just leave. sometimes its smth they have to do, other times, it just cause they dont care enuf anymore.. but we can never really tell, can we? thats cause, people lie.

"lost and insecure, you found me.."
however, God will never give you something you cant handle.. keep that in mind. God is gracious.. I was content to be alone, and focus on my studies. I was ready to go thru stuff alone. But then, he appeared, and showed me a whole new perspective of life i have never seen before. i am looking at life through his eyes. things can happen so unexpectedly at timess.. sometimes its a bad thing, sometimes, it can be the best thing that could ever happen. a whole new wonderful chapter in my life.

"just give me one more chance to make it right.."
i am not proud of my mistakes in the past, so please dont remind me. imma make sure that i dont repeat my mistakes. all the pain it has caused.. its just so ridiculous. i could've taken it all back if i was given the chance to. but, why shud i right? God already set this path for me. all that matters now is him. and it'd kill me if i did anything to break his heart, or mine.

"if i told you that i realised youre all i ever wanted..and its killing me to be so far away"
would you tell me that you love me too?

okay. sorry for the emo blogpost..

goodbye BK, have fun in perth.. I'll take care of sha here in kuching.. we'll all miss ur lameness terriblyy. and your black myvi which we couldnt find in springg. oh yeah, thanks that you sanggup drive all the way back to fetch me when i was stucked outside my house, and thanks that u didnt mind to turn back when i called again to say nvm.

i'm excited bout tomoro's badminton competition. not bout me playing thoughh. bout me watching others. goodnight!



i just realised i got tagged

1. Each player of this game starts off with 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
2. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 15 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.
3. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
4. No tags back!!



1.i love to watch cartoons
2.i like to look at beautiful girls (dont get freaked out bahh, its fun stalking girls lol)
3.i sleep like a log
4.i want to be a superstar LOL
5.i like to bite my lips, i dunno why
6.i scream alot
7.i love to do my hair
8.i wanan be a hair stylist one day. or a fashionistaaa HAHA
9.i wanna record an album..
10.i wanan sing for agung LOL
11.i spend too much
12.i love to eat chicken's ass wahahaa
13. i need a new screen protecter
14.i need to stop spending
15.i eat ALOT

tags
-reening
-sophia
-eunice
-rachel
-jacky yap
-jerry
-lina
-nimai

blablabla. i shud learn to save my money. amen.

Sunday, April 05, 2009

Picture of The Day

Hello, my name is Ng Pui Bun.

lol

I'm kiddinggg.

Wondering why my name is Ng Pui Bun?

Because...(my address is censored for safety purposes LOL)
Russell Lee sends me a letter everytime a new book is published. Wanting me to write more stories to him. BUT WHY THE HECK IS MY NAME NOW NG PUI BUN. zzz. lol.

And if by some twisted will of fate, Ng Pui Bun is currently reading this post. I HAVE YOUR FREAKING LETTER and sorry for advertising your name. lol



Friday, April 03, 2009

okay, lets give blogging another go.

i'm sorrryyy that i havent been putting up decent posts. so now, lets give it another shot. =D

i actually have 3 movies to watch at the moment. plus baby's in tuition so i need things to do meanwhile. what shall i blog about today? ohh wait, quick review on my week. 30/3/09-3/4/09


My body was still sore this whole week. No thanks at all to the lompat kijang and the lompat jauh AND the physical test Mr. Yakub is making us do. omg i can only do 12 push ups ok! plus i am soooo not flexible. sighs. so it's been a realy painful week, literally. We got our test papers back too. Was not too bad, i'm content with my marks. I managed to beat those people i wanted to beat the crap out of, ie Daniel. lol. Oh, this week we also found out that sports day has been postponed. I know i have mentioned bout it before. screw you, i am upset okay. And this week, Mervin threw his first cakera.. It went sideways though. Note to everybodeh, do not stand of close proximity when this dangerous boy throws the cakera. shot put also wei! haha.

Hmm, Today. Just happened to be the most stressful and busy friday i've ever had. TGIF my head ah! So much work to complete. Zzz.. i think i got 5 dimerits from Pn. Ding for not completing my math work. shits. Oh i went for public speaking audition today. Screw that. I am fat. I fell asleep in tuition today, successfully without being woken up by the kakaks. I am so happy. lol. And i finally reloaded todayy.. 2 whole days of not texting is torture. lol.



So, back to that decent post i was talking about.


HMM.

Okay, so i decided i'll blog bout things that make my world go round.



TWELVE THINGS THAT RUBY LOVES.




GOD. He's not counted cause my love for him is neverending, it is out of this world. Nothing can ever compare to Him, so let me rephrase that




TWELVE EARTHLY THINGS THAT RUBY LOVES



(in no particular order)


1. My FnF's.

Yes, what can i ever do without them. My family, Daddy Mummy Che2 Dedek, Berwick Chloe, Extended Family, Cousins Aunties Uncles, Nenek, Grandies, My besties, Everyone who mean the world to me. I Heart you all.





2. Mervin.


I am not gonna get cheesy and post the cutest picture alive of him cause i'm stingy and i dont wanna share. Teehee. He means so much.
=)


however, there are no vacancies available at the moment. Please try again later, tq. =D

3. FOOD




FOOD MAKES MY WORLD GO ROUND. Damn, no wonder lah i so fat. Stop saying i not okay! i stare at my tummy everyday so i know. Shits. What can I do? I have fallen in love. With glorious food. But this time I know its true. We are meant to be together my love. With your body in me, we can make magic happen. LOL. Its like the feeling you get when you see someone you love after a long day of school. But this is better. HAHA. You know i'm joking. or AM I? HMM.. okay, moving along!

and i particularly HEART ice cream. COME ON PEOPLE, DROOL


4. SHOPPING


Holy MOLEY i heart shopping. I can shop everyday of my living live. (WTF?) ahahahaa. provided i have all the kaching i could ever use. weee.. Which reminds me, i seriously neeed to shop. But I DAMN BROKE LOR. Shits. I Shall study hard and i want money. I want to go on a shopping spree and fill my already full cupboard with even more happy clothes. i dont give a shit bout what my parents say I WILL CONTINUE FILLLING MY CUPBOARD until it explodes!








5. TEXTING


Which teenage girl doesn't like to text you tell me? Har? Its our nature. Deal with it. DEAL WITH IT DADDY. hahahaa.



6. ENTERTAINMENT + TECHNOLOGY


So i got lazy so i'm gonna classify it into one big umm, class? lol. Entertainment would include movies, music, musical instruments, the tv, the computer, anything at all which i find entertaining. Includes my xmexy 6300 and other beautiful gadgets.


7. PHOTOGRAPHY



Yea i love taking pictures. NOT ONLY OF MYSELF OKAY. haha. i discoverd digital micro recently SORRY LA I NOOB. I've always known bout it, but never knew how to use like, properly and nicely. I finally caught an awesome pic few days ago, and its like falling in love all over again. Wheee. I'm definitely gonna start experimenting more on photography. Its freaking interesting.















8. Fashion + Hair



I just love it. I like to dress up and do stuff to my hair. I like to mess my cupboard up digging for my clothes. Go figure. Sometimes i get lazy too. Oh well.



9. Singing, Dancing, Talking



I know you guys cannot agree more with this one. You can tell by the amount of singing and dancing and talking i do in class, you fellow 5Cekap-ians. English is a good language. Enhance it. Embrace it. Live it. Enjoy it. DO NOT KILL IT. (just being random)



10. STUDYING



(this one forced labour one)



HAVE TO LOVE STUDYING. I'm sitting for some major public exam this year so i dont really have a choice do i? I love Bloody Biology, madly in love with Sucky Sejarah, Cocky Chemistry, Paloi Physics and Annihilating Add Maths. Woot!

11. The Colour Pink.

anything PINK

(please people, be realistic. Soft, gentle pink lah. Not those bright neon "pink"s. I can NOT believe such an ugly shade of pink exists in this cruel world. Brings shame to the colour and all the wonders it brings.)


12. CHAD MICHAEL MURRAY
OH SHUT UP J! He's gorgeous.



dayum.


I'm done. Tiring la blogging. haha. Till next time, PEACE OUT (HAHA RACHEL XD)









oh WHATEVER. HAHA

Wednesday, April 01, 2009

=D

ah yes, i know i didnt update when i say i would. lol. sorry laa. busy bahh. btw, my exam results were acceptable =)

and sports day got postponed. =.= all that looking forward to nothing!

and i'm involved in st john foot drill. i feel so damn palat lor. haha

mervin cut his hair HAHA =D

today got homework.. its amazing ok! one month busy with exams, not used to work nymore. lol

facebook is not working. wth

msn is not working x2 wth

i overslept this afternoon, but thanks to certain people who wanted to pull a prank on me, i woke up. thank god for mervin =)

johan is a terrible liar .

i am sleepy

i will do my homework in class tomoro

i will finally bring some books to school.

SPORTS DAY POSTPONED. omg did i say that already? paiseh lorr

lester and i are fine =)

paul is a noob in kawad. ah puii! boing boing

sha can kawad! omg! lol

sha has a "s" problemss.

ST JOHN UNIFORM DAMN HUGE LOR. the shirt. the pants damn tight, and its hanging for me =(

that shows that i shdnt palat gb, HOR?

but boohoo.

i wanna see mervin's hair. hahaha

baldieeee

lets go sleep.

sex drive is stupid =.=

its only 11

OMG ITS THE FIRST OF APRIL! spm is drawing near.

i'm nervous bout impromptu speeches.

i gotta stop making random statements

good.night!