i miss you. :S

Bucket full of tears, baby know I'm here. I'm here waiting.
Just close your precious eyes and just realize i'm still fighting.

For you to be with me and sit under this tree and we can watch the sun rise.

We can watch the sunrise.

Wake up, feel the air that I'm breathing

I cant explain this feeling that I'm feeling -

I won't go another day without you <3

And hold on, I promise it gets brighter

When it rains, I'll hold you even tighter

I won't go another day without you.

Without you.

a thought

"You ever look at a picture of yourself and see a stranger in the background? It makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you, how many moments of other peoples lives have we been in, we're we a part of someone's life when their dreams came true, or were we there when their dreams died. Did we keep trying to get in, as if we were somehow destined to be there, or did the shot take us by surprise. Just think, you could be a big part of someone else's life, and not even know it."
(quoted from One Tree Hill EPISODE #403)

i've got no good left in me now

SENSES FAIL LYRICS

"Calling All Cars"

Calling all cars we've got another victim
'Cause my love has become an affliction
What did you expect from me?
What did you expect from me?

I'm sorry but I think I failed to mention
That I lied at my very first confession
What did you expect from me?
What did you expect from me?

'Cause this has been building since I have been breathing
And I know how it's going to end

So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word when I swore that I would let you down
And now that I'm gone
Try to forget me and just move on
So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word and you hate me for it now
You knew all along
Try to forget me and just move on

Oh my dear, what have I gone and done now?
It's curtain call, I'm about to take my last bow
What did you expect from me?
What did you expect from me?

Without giving away the entire ending
I ruined the evening again

So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word when I swore that I would let you down
And now that I'm gone
Try to forget me and just move on
So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word and you hate me for it now
You knew all along
Try to forget me and just move on

I don't have love left inside, inside
And I don't have love left inside, inside
Are you desperate for an answer?
I don't have an ounce of good left in me now
That's why I walked out

So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word when I swore that I would let you down
And now that I'm gone
Try to forget me and just move on
So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word and you hate me for it now
You hate me for it now
Try to forget me and just move on

I am not the one that you should blame
So take what I left you for the pain
I am not the one that you should blame
So take what I left you for the pain
And do your best to forget my name

the sun's getting cold...

i feel great.... the fact that the choir won the inter-school competition today feels so good... but....

sigh

i guess good things doesnt last forever ey? might not even be in the team anymore next year.. my dad thinks that choir is too much of a sacrifice.. and.. and.. sigh. it hurts to even talk about it..

"after this year, its over. no more choir for you"

wtf!

when i found the one thing that i'm good at.. and i actually really REALLY love it.. he just has to take it all away.. just like he did to swimming.. tennis.. taekwondo.. etc etc.. it just sucks sumtimes u noe.. having an overprotective dad and all. sheesh!

the one day that i felt so good about myself.. just went down the drain. now how sucky is that? plus. i have my piano examinations tomoro.. so wish me luck. i'm gonna finish off some work, and head off to bed early. and did i mention i STILL have to go back to school after my exam tomoro? thanks alot dad! sigh.

still lonely and frustrated..

=)

i love you.
shh. =)

roarrr!!!

whoah. blogger.com just made me realised smth

this is my 50th post. o.O

okay fine, its nth much to be oo-ed about, but hey, i wasnt much of a blogger person to begin with.. and to think that msot of my posts are either boring or jiwang. hmm.. lets face it, i aint no natural born blogger BUT i made it to the 50th post so yay me? xD

and so i've been thinking. and i made a conclusion that this holidays has begun to mold me into a very very emo person. there you go, i said it.. =.= i've also FORGOTTEN how to do algerabra btw. it sucks laa.. and what have i been doing this holidays so far? lets take a look shall wee..?

1. BLEACH.

its very addictive okay! in the end of each episode when it says "TO Be Continued", it always, and i mean ALWAYS make me wanna watch more. in fact i'm already at episode 81! i'm suppose to go on with episode 82 right now, but i learnt how to control my serious addiction and i started to blog before i get bored and start watching again.. sigh. its okayy.. watching anime is healthy.. i.. think. wait, is it? omg. help. =X

2. SINGING

yes yes.. everyone knows the choir is working really hard to perfect our songs.. and today's practise was especially tiring. but its okay.. i believe it'll all pay off.. so this holidays i've practically been singing my heart out, dsepite the fact that i'm losing my voice, but its okayyy.. practise makes perfect, and we still aint perfect!... YET.

3. PIANO-PRACTISING

20th June. Piano Practical Exam. any further elaborations needed? xD

4. SLEEPING.

ahhh yes.. hibernation season. well honestly? i havent been sleeping that much.. less that what i've expected.. cause i've been sleeping at about 12 every night.. and wake up about 8 the next morning. (or earlier) and thats like.. less than 10 hours of sleep! sigh. what can poor ruby do.. her pigginess cannot "menyerlah" throughout this holidays. sniff

5. DANCING

yeah.. i dance. i cant live without dancing. i can say that dancing has already become a part of me.. its a way i worship the Lord.. its a way i get rid of my sorrows and express my joy too.. its just another blessing that God has given.. and i believe that when HE puts it to it, HE'll put you through it too.. this is just one of His ways.. and i'm truly grateful for this.

6. TRYING to study

i AM aware of PMR being very very close.. and i am aware of my responsibilities as a student.. so i'm trying my best to study.. sigh. all i can say is i tried!

7. ONLINING (dont kill me for using such english, please. xD)

its practically a daily routine. no suprise there.