blarrhh

i hate youtube for being such a a$$ sumtimes. sigh. it was going so well until... until.. episode 65. =.=

whats the date today? 31st May 2007. omg i still haven finished my sejarah project.. daymm.. so anyway

how'd my day go today? pretty good i guess. got up at about 9.30 am. thanks to a certain some1 who kept messaging my phone and eventually woke me up.. =.= i started working on my second piano piece today. the tempo's all wacked la.. i got so friggin pissed.. and to think that i have a performance this monday.. sigh

when my mom got home, which was about 2? yeah. we got ready and stuff, and we went shopppinnnnggggg.... for what? for.... karaoke cd's. swt la. we got home at about 5.30 pm and my mum, my sis and I(later joined by my dad at about 8?) went on a singing marathon from 5.30pm till 9.45 pm!(thats about 4 HOURS!)*wondering whether my neighbours are pissed off or not. =p*

and then i went on my bleach marathon, which is now distrupted due to youtube being a complete a$$. sigh. tomoro's a new day! 6 minutes to gawai? haha. cant wait till sunday. cant wait till monday.. cant wait till wednesday. so much to look forward to la! though my heart's feeling very very heavy.. sigh.

everything's feeling so... i dont know how do i explaint it, but its like that. everything feel's so empty.. hmm. okay. i'm done now.

gah!

i'm bored. =(

i miss my phone. =((

i suck at cam-whoring.. =(((

i hate msging ppl i dont like to msg.. =((((

what did i do today?

i woke up at 0630 hours. (i noe.. OMG.) just to find out that my mum was hogging the beautiful*coughs*bathroom.. unlike some of you fortunate peeps out there, i have to actually wait for my turn to take a shower in the morning.. my mum tends to take FOREVER. so anyway, it was my turn at about.. 0650 hours.. =.= so during that 20 mins, i went back to sleep! yay me! xD

rushed like hell, cause i thought i was gonna be late for choir.. cause the traffic in the morning is crazzyyy.. plus we had to send my momma to work 1st.. but it appears that it was kinda okay.. so i was early for choir anyway.

we sang our hearts out! (okay a lil' exaggeration, but its okay.. xD) we're improving! sigh.. sopranos! we have to work hard! get our "oooo's" and "aahhh's" right! 21 more days people! Pn Luk couldnt join us today.. she was busy.. but Jeremy took over when Ryner left anyway.. oh RIGHT. i have smth very very VERY disturbing to share.. i shall remain this bitch's identity, XXX.

XXX stepped into our beloved bilik kuliah, with her oh-so-beautiful smile.. its scary too in a way.. I was being polite, so yeah, i greeted her like i always do.. with my sweet smile and ...... (LOL. okok. i'll stop) so she was observing us choir members. and i know we havent perfected our parts yet, but PLEASE LA. (ruby trys to control her mouth by sticking a big piece of cellophane tape) would you puh leez just SHUT UP?

forgive me for being slightly rude here, and i noeee her words were suppose to help to build us up.. but what the tut la..

"you listen ha.. when you guys get together like this for a practise, you have to make sure you ive in 100% of your commitment into the practise. be serious. not like RUBY who answers her phone in the middle of the practise."

WTF.

it was a very important call okay! she pissed me off right there and then. okay. i thought maybe.. just MAYBE she would at LEAST refer to us generally ka.. but NO. she just HAD to say my name.. wtf la.. i lost my respect for you! you're lucky i'm not even CURSING you. i'm a christian. but clearly you have tested my patience. so. I'm sorry God.

enough of that. after choir, my dad came 20 mins late, and i was starvvvinnnggg already. so by the time i got home, i ate like a ..... (too gruesome to describe) and there.. i've forgotten all about XXX. thank GOD i dont see her everyday anymore.. then i went on9 for a couple of hours, and slept in until 5.30 pm. thanks to Paul (who woke me up with his nudge) it was a very productive 4-hour nap. cause A, i calmed down about the whole XXX thing and B, it made up for all the sleep i lost last nite! yay

that was practically how my day went. tips on how to kill boredom in ur everyday life? go to www.reeninglau.blogspot.com. go on.. you know u want to. xD

not emo not emo~

four tres two uno! o.O blogging time~

22 days to go.. We're getting there......meli, i miss you so much..(wait... rewind and freeze.!)

22 days to go.. We're getting there......

yeah. xD 22 more days to go to the choir competition.. wargghh.. hopefully it doesnt clash with my frikin piano exam! scares the living sh*t outta me.. i worked so hard for both, and knowing that i can only go for either one, SUCKS. i wanna sing AND play. its kinda like choosing between kebudayaan and choir last time.. sigh, i never did get the chance to dance.. but oh well.. decisions decisions..

Holidays. How've they been so far? okay i guess.. havent really done that much, considering that the hols has just begun.. but i HAVE been pretty busy lately, and i STILL have my projects to finish.. sigh. its okay.. tomoro's another day.. speaking of tomoro, pn Luk's joining us for choir practise! yay! she has an ammmaazzzziinnnggg voice.. her technique and everything. wow. her voice projection and all.. o.O

i just realised i havent really hung out yet.. today my mission was to finish watching BLEACH until episode 60.. and i made it! WOW. i hate the fact that Aizen Taicho is frikin evil.. sigh.. why cant he be that sweet loving guy Hinamori admires? sniff.. heartbroken larr!! speaking of heartbreakin', KIDDO!! warrgghh.. he didnt change the slightest BIT! he still sings like an angel, and he looks as HAWT as ever! =p (for those of you who are wonderin who the heckie is kiddo, he's this singer from Gen Rev from the Philipines. hawtness. =p)

what else.. hmm.. oh, i'm painting my nails black. (ish. so random)

okay. i'm done blogging now.. gotta go pain my nails! p/s i AM NOT emo. =p

....... sigh

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you,
I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do,
I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe
I need to feel you here with me, yeah

[Chorus]

nth lasts forever - maroon 5

It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness kills us both

I tried and tried to let you know
I love you but I'm letting go
It may not last but I don't know
I just don't know If you don't know
Then you can't care And I show up
But you're not there But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you

Everyday
With every word whispered we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing last forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

A bed that's warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
The misbehaving only makes T
he ditch between us so damn deep
Built a wall around my heart

Never let it fall apart
Strangely I wish secretly
It will fall down while I'm asleep If you don't know
Then you can't care

And I show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you, babe

wargh

boredom kills..

holidays are here.....FINALLY.

Youth Outing to Siar Beach...
Choir practises..
Piano practises..
Piano Performances..
Concert practises..
Langkawi Trip..
Geografi project
Sejarah Project
Piano Exam
Mok PMR Exams
PMR Examination

roar.

*laughs..* i guess i was wrong

"What Goes Around... / ...Comes Around Interlude"
Hey girl, is he everything you wanted in a man?
You know I gave you the world
You had me in the palm of your hand
So why your love went away
I just can't seem to understand
Thought it was me and you babe
Me and you until the end
But I guess I was wrong

Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fair?

Is this the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around
That you were gonna make me cry
It's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find...
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around

Now girl, I remember everything that you claimed
You said that you were moving on now
And maybe I should do the same
Funny thing about that is
I was ready to give you my name
Thought it was me and you, babe
And now, it's all just a shame
And I guess I was wrong

[Comes Around interlude:]

Let me paint this picture for you, baby

You spend your nights alone
And he never comes home
And every time you call him
All you get's a busy tone
I heard you found out
That he's doing to you
What you did to me
Ain't that the way it goes
When you cheated girl
My heart bleeded girl
So it goes without saying that you left me feeling hurt
Just a classic case
A scenario
Tale as old as time
Girl you got what you deserved
And now you want somebody
To cure the lonely nights
You wish you had somebody
That could come and make it right
But girl I ain't somebody with a lot of sympathy
You'll see(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
[laughs]

See?You should've listened to me, baby
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeahBecause(What goes around comes back around)
[laughs]

is this worth it.....

it's..... unfair..

life's unfair..

why am i the one who has to get hurt?

why is it always me..

just for once.. i thought maybe..

but no...... i end up being the one who gets left behind again

the one who has to give in..

knowing that i have given so much of myself...

i'm always the one who makes the mistakes

why ME?

sigh... its okay now...

everything's okay.....

he's happy.. and i shouldnt ruin that for him..

and she's happy.. i dont wanna hurt her...

but i'm unhappy... and i'm hurting myself...

mmhmm.. fcuk it all.

you're already the voice inside my head... miss you, miss you...

"Innocence"

Waking up I see that everything is OK
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

[Chorus]
This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now.........
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm, I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere.............
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

[Chorus]
It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

This innocence is brilliant
Makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliant
Please don't go away
Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

[Chorus]

* a wonderful song... dedicated to... well, you.. hmm..