Vent

WHO do you think you are

Running round leaving scars

You know, I was doing absolutely fine without you

I was dealing with the pain of losing you fairly well

I learnt to live life outside of our little globe

Out of that little bubble we live in

You know, the bubble where there was only us

Just you and me

Gazing into each others eyes

I was seeing other people

I was living a different lifestyle

A lifestyle that I myself was not familiar with

But awkwardly enjoyed

I was content with life for the first time since we broke up

But no.

Everything I did.

Everythingggg led me back to you

The people I was seeing - "he doesnt know me as well as you do"

"he doesnt play as well as you do"

"he doesnt dress as well as you do"

"he doesnt get me like you do"

sigh.

WHY ISS THAT?

People say I'm stupid for letting you back in my life after the pain you've put me through

They know.

They alll know I was vulnerable

They all knew how messed up i was

But still i let you back in.

After 2 years of multiple flings, hook-ups and stuff, I realized

That i'm still not over you

WHY IS THAT

Why is it that i give in to you so easily

Why is it that i can never resist you everytime you come knocking on that door?

I'm freakin in love with you thats why

And I'm angry

I'm angry at myself for being this stupid

For indulging in smth that will soon lead me to a series of hurt and pain

Especially after I leave

Cause I know you too well.

7 years i've known you

And you me

We just complete one another

Remember how we always seem to say the same things at the same time

Or how we have exactly the same taste in music

How I would just sit in your car, sit back and relax

Cause its my songs playing on the radio

Or how i could just fall asleep in your arms

Because your scent makes me week in my knees

How

How can i EVER give this up?

Youre my best friend

And thats the best part

But the thought of losing you again kills

Its hurting me deep to my bones

Dysfunctionality.

Hey you,

I wonder how long it'll take you to realize that I've posted something here. If youre really stalking me that much that it won't take too long :) but hello. Yes this one goes out to you, love.

"...because you’re the first person I wanna look at when I wake up in the morning and the only one I want to kiss goodnight. Because the first time that I saw those hands, I couldn’t imagine not being able to hold them. And the first time I kissed those lips, I couldn't imagine it being with anyone else."

"So tell me, how did things work out so well with your wife?

Simple dude, I married my best friend."

"..cause there's just no one who gets me like you do. you are my only one"

"I do this from time to time when I like to think of you and me."

"cause at the end of the day, it all comes down to you and me. just you and me. and no, replying me an hour late isn't gonna help anything."

"well you always know how to make me feel better when i'm angry or upset anyway. a gift, and a curse"

"well thats it for today folks! tune in next time"

"nyom nyom"

"i won't go another day without you"

"and it goes like this!"

charlieee

hi.

i miss youu :(