uncontrolable tears, controlled. hmm..

staring at those beautiful stars
that once brought such a deep meaning
felt as if it was as though
i could feel it once more..
but it's gradually fading away..
as you showed me what my heart already knew..

i've tried so badly..
i've failed countless times..
but i got right up and tried once more
yet, once again..
i stumble and fall..
i fell so hard that i nearly broke down and cried..
but even at my worst, you were there..
i never saw such a thing..
a love that was here to stay..

"You could've had everything..
everything you could possibly want.."
but would i be satisfied with EVERYTHING?
still asking the same questions..
still searching for the right answers..
but everything just isnt falling into the right place..
it isnt..

but i've found a way to leave things behind..
found a way to walk away..
and by God grace, i'm still here today
living entirely for Him..
and doings works for him..

speaking of works, i've got homework!
AND i have to study!! arrgghh!! hee..